Sunday, February 20, 2011

February

February marks many special events for me, both happy and sad. 14 February is the most memorable date for me being my father's passing on. Every yr when i see pple celebrate valentine's, i remembered that fateful day when i rushed to the hospital to find him not breathing anymore...his legs and hands were cold, the towel which covered his head to bring down his temperature was cold too...i was scared coming to terms to let him go..if only...i'd stayed the whole day with him, i would have been with him at his last breath...it was between the time my mum left for home and i was on the way when he drew his last breath... this year marked 10 years he left us. I love u PAK!

10 february...heehee me turned 36. wonderful! tak mcm 36 kan? mcm 26 ade? my bday wasnt a good day for me. I HAD TO WORK. there was a wonderful bday cake surprise though at work. after work, I had to come out with a bday dinner plan on my own....men...will they ever learn that bdays are so very important to women! too bad....got a lovely bday present though...its...


Yes samsung galaxy tab!...evrytime i carry out, pple wld say..."takde besar lagi ke?"




But deep deep inside my heart this is what i want....LV tulum.... on my wishlist...any sponsors?

7 February my bro's bday..the one at the corner...next to me is the Wifey, their waiting for their firstborn cum april! Alhamdulillah













13 February my darling hub's bday...he turned 40 this year...ish tak mcm 40 sey...masih muda lagi...

20 February 2011, mak turned 64. A strong lady and patient lady whome i always looked up to! We had brunch at ayam penyet at JP wit my family. my bros had sumting on and couldnt join us. after makan, kita gi jalan at JP to get mak a bag. bot her to esprit but didnt like either, in the end she got a bag from ZINC...ceh steady lah ZINC..the kind of bag my youngest bro would carry! LOVE you loads mak!

Monday, January 17, 2011

feelings

how do you best tell someone something so true without hurting them?

i want so much to tell someone that i could have done a better job with her but...but didnt want to hurt her though

ok this was what happened..one of my frens got engaged..ok i may sound hoity poity..but i could have made her up nicer...and afterwhich, she would have really looked good in her pics...wasted!

ok ok..though she doesnt put on make up as much as i do...but then i think she needs someone who can do a better job to make her look prettier kan?

it was such a special occassion but she didnt look good with her make up!! to think that pple did compliment her! My god! are they BLIND? or just finding her a soft spot?

Ok enuf tini! stop being critical! but I CANT HELP IT! ..if only ariessen was reading this! she willd definitely agree!

and i cld have done way way better with her room deco and gifts!!! my god!

at the end of the day, my intention was to make someone's special day a memorable one..let pple talk about the beauty of that special day...i dont need the credits lah...the main player of that special day would be enough...

ok then, when my youngest bro gets married, i'll have to start planning what colour and theme i want his gifts deco to be...ideas anyone?

Thursday, January 13, 2011

a new year with new beginnings

even before 2011 came, there were many challenge i knew i will face.

i will be taking 2 classes on my own witout my buddy on my side....nevertheless she'll still give me her remote support..heehee

my son is in P3 this year and in the morning session...so be prepared for CCA, extra classes, etc etc...i hope he can cope

this year i have to make one of these 3 choices:
A - pursue BA
B - take driving license
C - proceed with IVF

must prioritize....perhaps cant take option A because of my overload at work, choice C also must wait because need to take a lot of time off from work...hmm a bit difficult lah...

so choice B is the one...but ah..must quickly start with my registration coz..i've been postponing it again and again....ish! sorry aries!

it was a different experience working where i am right now..if in 2009 it was a power struggle at another place...in 2010 it was an emotional struggle n i worked hard at it but sad maybe it wasnt enuf

come 2011..i feel i'm swarmed!.....i seem to be doing lots of things...but then again..maybe again it wont be enuf...

not enuf seems to be the word of the day!

but on the bright side...2010 was a wonderful year for my wardrobe..i splurged on my clothes..pamper myself with new clothes, new shawls etc etc...once or twice i'd spent witout battling my eyelids on the price tag...

my 36th is coming! FUH!!! 36 ordy? hmm...what shall i buy for my own bday present and what shall is ask my hub to get for me? maybe a longchamp for myself and a gucci or a hp from the hub? think think..carefully!

ok what shall i do on my bday? since i have to work!!!!

Tuesday, January 04, 2011

for the longest time

wow! 4 years! for so long i didnt update my blog. i sure got a lot to cerita man! since 2007, a lot has happened.

I remembered talking about my aunt who passed away and leaving the husband who was recuperating from his stroke..very sad story, my uncle passed awy too after his wife passed on 2 months later. it was like a romeo and juliet story which goes to show that they cant live without one another. very sad...they were very dear to me.

another sad note, i had talked about my niece wedding in june 2007...she passed on too last year...very sad..leaving behind her 2 year old son..her leaving us was like a stab in the stomach..the sadness that went through the family was unbelievable...I believed she was such a kind soul that Allah SWT loves her more and wants her to be at a better place...as of now her son is in good hands taken care by her own family.

along the way, I had more and more grand nieces and nephews that came to add on to the family...well, i'm still with my one and only boy!

I 've moved my workplace from one centre to another now...i've also moved on with my career. I moved house too..after 8 years at my 1st home..neaREr to my mum now.. my younger bro got married and waiting for their firstborn this coming april. my first ever NIECE! lovely...

All these past years, I 've certainly learnt a lot i got to know pple better, see pple in a different light, gone through hardships, heartbreaks and many more...but amidst all these i always have my dear hub wit me and my ever loyal buddy. These 2 pple are always there to gv me support and think helped me hold on strong!

think will update my blog regularly since FB has become too public! right? *wink* *wink*