bdays

a bit tool late a little update on the hsbnd and mum's bday both in february 13th and 20th..n both celebrated at swensens jurong point..only difference was indoors and outdoors...hahahahaha...nd more fotos look up at my albums

the 2 most important guests present at abah's bday...hw cum sumone hs a pink balloon??? heart shaped u know...
ok dis is the hsbnd bday celebratn..at swensens...the foto like not nice like dat..eh? so gelaps...

a photo of the whole family...lepas makan..hmmmmm dah kenyangssss.....

ok both the celebrations was fine..the ice cream cake was simply wonderfuuuuulllll...but extra weight gained..hahahahahaha..melimpah-limpahlah lemak lemak ku...

the one wit apple cider vinegar

guess u all hv heard of this miracle pills...dunno if it wrks or not lah...but my sis in law lost 10kgs wow! tot of tryg it but dat GNC lady was sayg btr not klu nak conceive..so put all aside...sori tini hv to exercise to lose all those sooooooo much FAT.

now talking abt this, sumone at work is eatg dis....goodness gracious! her mood!..i've read sumwhr or was it the doctor who told me..that taking diet pills tend to agitate you...eh kesian kan? agaknya tak dpt makan, so jadi gitu tak....

so dis sumone is so 'ngiau' dat kita kat keja semua tak kena, ini salah, itu salah, den must do dis, must chge dat,once she step into our class ade ajelah yang hv to chge...

like aries said, dah mcm 'lempuk'(our ex sup) pulak! n we cant wait for her not to be in the ctr..ishishish...sampai gitu sekali...den kan, she wil hang around another cls n be paly paly wit sumone else, sengaje nak buat kita jealous lah agaknya, den on another occasion-while witg for bus, mcm tak nampak kita...aik! mcm pernah cerita eh? halo! its veri funny lah, nanti klu kita tanya mesti dia ckp takde ape2 lah...

poor me soon my buddy will be goin on her loooooooooooooooooooooooong leave...kesian member terpaksa tahan...eh lama tau...84 hari....

dah ok itu aje nanti klu angin dia berubah..kita story lagi

losing a fren

this is official..no my fren didnt die...it juz feels dat way..we've been frens since '94 and nvr stopped being frens but wat hpnd yestdy drew the line...its just veri sad..

yestdy we met and u walked awy! wat else culd i tink of? i dont tink frens do dat to one another. so i guess, dis wil hpn wen we meet agn is it? so better prepare myself nxt time!

guess its pointless to talk abt what we've gone thru b4..aiyah wats the point ckp bnyk2 pun berbuih

the following are some credits i'd like to present to all who or whc were there wen were frens

thank u azman(my ex boyfren,frens with her hsbnd)

for introducing me to her...had it not been for you n u 2 timing me, i wld hv not known her.

thank u rosli(her hsbdn)

for not being nice to her sumtimes, if not for you, i'd not been listening to her whines and complains and be her listening ear and gv her advice.

thank u to her parents and family

for having her in this world, coz i had good times wit her whn were frens.

thank u lea n mars

for being wit us during our outings...u gals just added more fun

thank u M1

for letting me sms her whn we contacted each other

thanks hotmail

for letting me email to her

thanks rodyk

for providng the email acct so we can we email to each other

thanks orchard rd, raffles place, clarke quay, boat quay, tanjong pagar,city hall, sakae sushi, edo sushi, some thai restaurant at boat quay, swensens,delifrance,hoshigaoka, one japanese restaurant at basement of raffles city, NUH cafetaria,bk,macdonalds, KFC,bali indonesia,

for being there to let us spend our outings, dinners, lunches, shopping, gossiping, bitching abt pple, complaining

thank u my dear hsbnd

for listening to me when i whine abt her being pregnant n pregnant agn n agn

thank u aries

for listening to me when i whine abt her oso

thank u kamisah

for being a fren to me wen u can, listened to me when i whined, shoulder me when guys dumped me, go out wit me whn i felt veri depressed, listened to all my wild stories when we were younger, supporting me, praising me, complimenting me, advanced me cash during my wedding n for the biz course, belanjaing me food, buyg me tings whn u went msia or sumwhr n many more dat tings u did dat i may forgot or left out..i'll always appreciate you as a fren n like a sista 2...loved u too

hai sedih betul baca dis blog, inside me i menangis dat persahabatan kita jadi begini..
its goin to be veri veri veri veri difficult for me to hv all dis hurt inside..
but mayb i brot all dis upon myself, mayb serves me rite for being angry wen she got pregnant agn! hwvr i wonder y she seems so full of herself, she didnt make an effort to comfort me, instead, juz said btr not talk more abt her condition lest i'll feel upset...alah tink she'd said y bother wit tini, y should she care y i feel, we all our lives to live....rite? so dis poor tini remain all alone n moving farther and farther away from dis fren...

KL trip again

now danish and abah, finally our shppping spree starts...

kat stopover 20mins so mkn ice-cream to cool down







in the bus on the way to KL..ish mcm sejuk gitu dgn pullover padahal only aircon..


tak tau dah berapa kali nak upload dis foto asyik salah aje..here are some fotos during my KL trip on my 32nd bday..dis time round tak dpt shoppg sngt becoz danish always whining n den dis time was all the hsbnd paid..so mcm tak best gitu..hahahahahahaha..

ok there are more fotos at my multiply...so go ahd n tengok2

Cant help it

Cant help it..hv to pour this out!

Now its a new year...

sumhow 2007 doesnt seem to be a new year. ..pasal semua pple around me sama aje..i begin the year wit sum sedihness..there are some unresolved feeling i have whc i never tot i'd go through..thks aries for listening n supporting me all this while..i wish you a blissful motherhood coming soon! dont be scared!

nw wat is unresolved? ok here it goes...i feel sad with myself coz i tink sumtimes m too obligating wit pple...i do so much for them..of coz i do dat becoz i feel for them...i feel sad dat wat hpn in the past are just forgotten.....i began to tink, perhaps i'm not being sincere dats y i'm raking it all up...u guys tink so?...watever...but i tink not!...evry little ting i have dat reminds me of the past...tears me...god?! was i just a phase dat was meant to past and moved on...i do believe dat our lives moves on but are memories meant to be forgotten?..do i have to do more so dat i'll be appreciated? i'm not asking for an award....its just painful to realise dat dis does happen to us.....if i choose to be quiet abt it..fine den!...go on n be quiet! till u r fine den we can be normal agn....looks like its all not worth it! again we are in different roles now...we hav our own familyn all dat...but come on...I AM SO DISAPPOINTED!...i keep tinking dat i'd never have frens like dat..but i'm beginning to tink i do have...n fate..like aries says, its testing me...the more strained i am the more i see the person...i dont knw hw i'd react if we were to bump with one another, literally i mean...ok will continue dis wen i can...to you guys out there dont terasa ha!...only the person i meant will know who i'm talking abt!

outdated fotos

following are fotos of my niece, nephews, hby's bros, my nieces & bro, sis in laws and hby's nieces.

now with paman n nyai...









this is me wit danish....tink black hd always been the colour for me...lah..HITAM itu MENAWAN!





danish with abah...eh mcm cute gitu senyum

Hari Raya

eh dah lama betol tak update my blog...ape nak buat sibuk sangat wit the K2 concert...ish! finally bole upload my fotos..in fact i hv more fotos at my multiply...tried to go there...tapi multiply cakap coming soon! ook ini gambar kita berdua..muka dah penat becoz its the 7th hse!



eh ni dgn farhana..she used to be so montel like me...but i inspired her den we trade places...nw dia bole pakai baju me time single dulu....

ok ade lagi gambar...tapi mcm lambat gitu..nanti continue

CELEBRATE

wit alice..another kepala guru

the rest of us...

This is the catwalk segment..."Yang mana satu, idaman kalbu?"
Finally all the efforts paid off..she's 2nd runner up..hai su...
wit the person who strongly recommend her me n my P
wit the strongest supporter...mu huggable buddy...
n the 2 most important pple that made su a success...her 2 make up artist, cum stylist cum fashion advisor...n of coz the supporters...the one on the left(me!)was the loudest to cheer for su....hahahahaha....

ok the D&D was fine, but the food was not...i wanted to take fotos wit ladylee..saw her at a distance but didnt get to snap...(if only get to snap wit her, we'll all be black beauties....)

we danced to BORO BORO as part of the talent segment...i won the table draw..shawl and a sash...

TAGGED

I've been tagged by ariessen..ish panjang betol

10 Favs

Favourite Colour

Black

Favourite Food

nasi lemak(the traditional one, bungkus with daun pisang)

Favourite Song

Don't Speak by No Doubt

Favourite Movie

Pretty Woman

Favourite Sport

cycling

Favourite Day of the Week

Thursday, its the day b4 friday and its the Afdal day...

Favourite Ice Cream Flavour

chocolate, chocolate, chocolate

Favourite Car Model

it has to be the 4 wheel drive lexus..lupalah the model name

Favourite Subject in School

Biology esp human reproduction

Favourite Snacks

oh, you know the nutella in small packs? i will lick dat with the spoon

9 Current

Current Mood

quite good after our sharing session wit the OM

Current Taste

hmmm..tink my chicken wing

Current Clothes

my evergreen blue baju kurung, been wearing it for the past 3 years

Current Desktop

d gambar of the chdn at the time travellers in their kuda kepang costume

Current Toenail Colour

no colour dah..mcm mane nak pakai...kan kena solat

Current Time

3.33pm

Current Surroundings

at skool wit the chdns voices in the background

Current Annoyance(s)

my feeling nak terkencing...will go aftr doing this

Current Thoughts

how to spend my hsbnd's cuming bonus

8 First(s)

First Best Friend

Norliza my RGPS skoolmate, always go skool and home 2gether..still c her nw, but after we went different sec skool, we parted ways

First Crush

Redwan, my neybor stayng at 2nd floor

First Movie

ET

First Piercing

when i was 4 or 5 at a shop at Holland Village Shopping Centre

First Lie

when i was in primary one, it was fasting mth, i ate during recess but at home i told my mum i was still fasting

First Music

My late father's, Black Dog Bone albums

First Car

eh! kita takde takde lesen and tak mampu

First Real Date Venue

Metro Paragon

7 Last(s)

Last Drink

HL chocolate flavoured milk

Last Car Ride

naik kereta aries from JP to my hse

Last Movie

bujang senang

Last Phone Call

to my hsbnd telling him abt the miscalculated date of his nephew's engagement

Last Song Played

Dat song from Mariah Carey from her latest album lah, cant remember the title

Last Food Ate

tuna mayonaise sandwich

Last Thing I do before I go to sleep

kiss danish goodnite

6 Have You Ever(s)

Have you ever dated one of your best friends

my best frens are all gals...of coz never!

Have you ever broken the law

yes, bot chewing gum frm JB

Have you ever been arrested

detained at the customs ofc becoz of the above

Have you ever skinned dipped

never

Have you ever been on TV

yes dat Ratu Pesta contest

Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know

yes dis senior frm TP

5 Things You Are Wearing

casio watch, baju kurung, gold ring given by mum in law, undies, tudung

4 Things You've Done Today

send danish to skool

went mum's place

went to work

taught chdn on parts of the plants

3 Things You Can Hear Right Now

my noisy chdn

noisy chdn in the next class

my stomach growling for food

2 Things You Can't Live Without

food

&

food

1 Thing You Do When You Are Bored

Dream

ok aries...hope you got evryting!

My dear uncle

I forgot to put dis veri sad news...my dear uncle Cik Yusop Bin Hassan kembali ke Rahmatullah on the 13th June 2006, Wednesday, he collapsed at work and no cpr or shock cld revive him, even the paramedic was unsucessful...by the time reached the hospital its was oredi 30mins so, dah brain dead, doc managed to gv him the shock and he breathed, but stil brain dead..at 6plus next morning, he passed away

This is veri tragic, as he was a very healthy man, it seems dat ade blockage whc made his blood supply efftected..entahlah so chim lah the terminology....anyway Allah swt lebih sayangkan dia...AMIN

this is the second death in my famly for dis 2mths..its veri tragic

Outdated KL trip pics

finally the gambar of the family....look at me...so round!

the dinner here was wonderful, i had veri hot peri peri chicken, whc means veri veri veri hot!




The shopping paradise...7 floors in all!


in the bus on the way there....





Our breakfast spread, didnt know 3 stomachs can fill up so much! hahahahaha

sedihs

i was planning to update my blog wit my cutis at KL last wkend..tapi kita kan, lagi sedih...on the way dlm bas to KL i dpt talipon from Ogy my niece...gvg me berita sedih - Mohd Hafiz bin Abdul Jalil, my cousin's son meninggal in a road accident....he'sin NS now. he was the pillion on the bike, it seems dat the rider lost control n Allahyarham was flung to the tree and den hit the road kerb, he was alive only for a few minutes after the accident, it happened at bedok south esso petrol kiosk......the saddest part was when we talk abt ape tande2 org nak meninggal....sehari sebelum dia meninggal, dia balik lambat den dia mintak maaf dgn ibu dia, yang tak pernah dia buat...dah lah sedih lah nak cerita lagi..nanti continue

elections n holiday

ok the nominations are out...hong kah not contested so can go for holiday...

my buddy hs suggested we go batam..but only for one nite...bolelah asalkan dpt holiday! jadilah.... dis is whr we cld be stayg, we're stil planng...

holiday inn, batam...amacam geram kan?

there's another news whc i jus got....veri sad to share nantilah...bila ade mood kita continue....

however while i was surfing i saw dis pic d hsbnd took wit his new gadget....

my living room the sofa we bot frm ikea..eh, not bad jugak eh rumah kita ni, maklumlah since he was on leave, rumah veri d bersih!

let me start this by saying, "u veri slow lah tini!" ok for the moment since i didnt have my digicam yet, i can download pics frm the net kan? ish lambat betol lah me! so following are some barang2 i got for the past months...




ibiza ice
what i got for my birthday from d hsbnd

ok dis i wat i got for my "advance gift" frm my bonus...ish bonus belum dapat dah beli barang! so the hsbnd"bayar dulu".

as for my cumg up govt bonus....i cant make up my mind whc is bagussssssss

front view and rear view

alamak nak put down these camera's features...panjang sangatlah...

dis is canon ixus 65 at $679....worth it or not...but i didnt like the screen lah..kebesaran..u tengok eh....macam kat belakang camera to sebesar2 semua the screen..

now, dis is the lagi satu i like....sony cybershot w50...jambu..its $609...slim and sleek n best of all its hitam....

Key features 6.0 Mega Pixels Carl Zeiss Vario-Tessar Lens 3x Optical Zoom / 6x Digital Zoom High Sensitivity up to ISO 1000 High Stamina (Approx 390 shots) Slim FULL Metal camera body Easy to use interface

now both dis digicam are 6 megapixels...so abt the functions biaselah ixus mesti menang..picture clarity pun mesti lah canon...tapi i like sony nya design..nw whn i tried dis 2 camera's the hsbnd oso played the influential role...his dream was to buy a canon ixus..so dia cocok lah suruh beli canon...gue pulak mcm taknak..n dat sales guy lagi bole tambah..."wht was your previous camera?" we ckp we only hv video cam n ours canon, ape lagi, dat guy pun ckp lah, "den u shld buy canon?" eh ada relevan ke? entahlah nati gue fikir deep2...govt bonus cumg up...in may baru gue beli...

type pun type...dlm kepala otak...terfikir nak makan kat sini



kita nak makan....ini.....


and ini

ish...bila eh...oklah tengok menu...naik sedap pulak...better stop for now....

noting special

ok here it goes...the past few days.

monday
now i had no monday blues but was glad to be back at work....at least kat keja bole ketawa lepak2...i hd msg frm nor on sunday nite n we had bfast 2 gether b4 goin to work. my veri cute bantal peluk is on leave today she tak jadi cum bck to work becoz the hujans the lebats..nvrmind will still see her tuesday...ape lagi eh? nothing much lah. since she's on leave, in the afternoon jaga her class n the time passed veri slow to reach 7 pm...back home, my hsbnd had a craving for macdonalds, since not enuf cash, he waited for me to cum back..

tuesday
nor on leave, so hlpd out wit toddler clss durg shower n in the aftrnn only whn su came in...klu dektu, tak payahlah...
my darling hsbnd volunteered to look aftr danish at home..so no skool for danish...sumhw whn i told my mum dis, she didnt sound so pleased! aik mcm dia yang mengajar pulak, risau dis pasal her cucu nya education...maklumlah satu2 cucu...b4 i pegi kerja, pesan my hsbdn, can look after danish tapi "tolong jangan gaduh eh!"....whn i called home later, the son refused to hv his aftrnn nap, becoz buzy playing his pc game...ah...part ni addicted to pc nak salahkan siape?
nor msg us informg us dat "mama" company hs called her to cum to clct our report mon to fri nxt wk 8.30 to 11 in the morning...ish mcm mane eh, nxt wk how to take off, we hv events for the whole week in the morning!

wednesday
tdt dey called su...now if we dont go nxt week our xray n sum other chk not valid becoz more than 3 wks...nw we really have no choice...mcm mane eh? now on another note...i am feeling veri demoralised...becoz still no news of bonussssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss! to tink dat my hsbnd got told off when he asked me abt it! tu lah kita plan nak pegi holiday ni! abih cerita bonus senyappppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp! BINGITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cakap pasal holiday...dis was the last one we had!

wit the sen, sham and 1/3 of lee's fmly

thursday
me on half day leave, morning send danish to skool, biaselah den teman the hsbnd to the polyclinic....took out his stitches...patutnya cum bck to wrk at 2 or so, tapi nd time alone...so rushed to work...may cooked nasi lemak for teacher's lunch...tapi sikitlah...n den by 6 i was super lapar...tdy, aftr listeng to sumone abt dat chkup, we all mcm takut gitu...kita semua mcm nak backup...pasal nxt wk cant make it...den if we go aftr dat, our test not valid...so we r now veri worried!

to close dis off, i'm feeling SUPER DEMORALISED! BILA NAK DAPAT BONUS? ASYIK2 KENA BUAT NI, BUAT TU! TAPI PART NAK KASI LEBIH...SENYAP!

ish sori semua!....i tink its PMS or mayb need a holiday..i want to go to this country agn!

look how serene it is...can u imagine the weather its 15 degrees celcius!

WHATS UP

here goes my past days hapening

thurday till sunday
whole week, veri boring.....tak semangat...i cant wait to cum bck to work..dat man since he's home after his surgery, veri rimas you know...ade aje complen dia...maklum lah kita ni kan malas sikit nak buat kerja rumah......hari2 kita bangun pagi siapkan dia makan pun tak appreciate...ish nak keluar duit pun susah.. i tink its like dat lah orang yang sakit when cannot do things he want to do, he gets frustrated...si danish pun jadi mangsa...asyik kena marah aje!

den cum gd friday, ish lagi boring! dia sapu n mop rumah....ape lagi..besarlah kepala dia...tempang2 pun bole clean the hse! pple get to go for holiday, i've to berbulu telinga dgr ngomel dia...

den saturday...hv to attend dat stupid documentation portfolio wrkshop..stupid kan friday holiday den saturday go back for wrkshp! BINGITS! pulak tu, 9 to 5...kalau lah bole pegi shopping ke...kan best! aftr cls...si hsbdn had plan to go sleep over at his sis place at paris...i mean pasir ris...si selenge tu only ask me to call while we were on the way in the cab...BODOH KAN? n to his surprise...not to me...the whole family has gone to msia for a short holiday!......bodo bodo bodo kan?..i cld have guessed...to think he only told me in the cab, dat he tried to call whn in the cab n nobody answered the phone.......ish apelah nasib aku, ade suami s......

sunday - SUPER BORING! stay at home! when i said "lets go to expo to go to dat books warehse sale"...he had to cheek to say, "cab fare you cover lah".....hahahahaha....kita lagi surut ni! sedap aje dia ckp. lepas tu kita lagi sedap2 kat pc ni, ade aje dia bertekak dgn danish, mcm sengaja so i hv to stop and go out to see whts happening. bila part dia kat pc...ish jgn diganggu! if not the pc den wit his new N70 tak habis2 asyik mengentel aje dat STUPID HANDPHONE! and the HP is super confidential! no one is aloud to meddle with it....dunno wats in it!

to end dis all...i'm sori if i sound veri disrespectful of my hsbdn..entahlah...dah bertahun2 ni kahwin....all his shortcumings becums veri unbearable......FED UP!

ish malas!

ish mcm sibuk selaki gitu nak update blog...main reason being my modem was out for 3 months...so bila ada org sound den i update lah.

cant wait to get my digicam...pakai my hsbd nya hp lambat betol member nak update! ish i'm so slow with the technologylah..takpe sabar...ok let me summarize the happenings

1st april
no april fool joke on me but my hsbd bot his N70....i don like....i stil prefer his K750i, kita sound nak pinjam...nak pegi jumpa my old pals, nak petik gambar...senyap aje...lokek member.

3rd april
had my urine test and fat test...ish veri heavy and veri fat...BMI 31...ish, ish, ish...fats 42% ish3X...hmmm sehat.....urine veri high glucose...padahal tak makan sweet stuff!
recommended to take a full body check up..tomolo take blood test!...me,aries, nor and su all goin.
i met lea and sah my happening members way back wen we were younger..hmmm..started abt 10yers ago...ish lama betol...like is said...dulu slim melim, srkg when i met lea, she says i'm so huggable....as for sah, dia biasalah as cute as always!
we had dinner at swensens JP, ini yang tak syok ni takde camera nak tunjuk gambars....i had teriyaki chicken pasta...delicious...i tink so busy talking...i practically gulped down my foods.

4th april
the pple came down to take our blood test..all the four of us! kita last one, pasal use my cheque to settle...terperanjat member kena cocok tige tempat, dia kata my vein keep disappearing.....the nurse keep saying me veri daring, berani tengok kena cocok!...alah tak kesah..dis pain is nothing compared to my labour pains...

6th april
my hsbd went for surgery..to remove a lump at his calve...betol ke tidak spelling ni!...suppoz to be at 11am but delayed till 4.30pm...ish! habis at 7.30pm...penat member tunggu...and he sibuk pasal he is waitng for his new set of N70...the shop is replacing a new one for him...so eventually the guy came down to send him the new phone...rupanya dis fella is his colleague abih keja part time for this HP supplier...tapi kan, hensem budak ni tau! name dia halill...ada lesum pipit...if only i cld take his foto...

7th april
my hsbd discharged..took half day leave...and fetched him..kesian u, kena pakai crutches.....kelalar pun ade..on mc for 2wks...kesian dia..dok rumah..i hve to prepare food for him in the mornings b4 going to work...

8th april
my ex colleague, jo gave birth to her firstborn...veri cute n veri fat...wht to expect..she stayed home for whole 9mths, food taken care of, no work stress, sleep and sleep...


dis is her wit her tanda hantaran

dis is wit aunty tini(alamak huw cum d tudung like dat?)
9th april
my niece got engaged, hantaran 7,000 ....fuh lumayan...kita dulu hmmm 5K...

today
we had our easter celebration in skool.dis parents kan, kalau datang our ctr celebrations, tak lain tak bukan, mesti nak makan...suka mereke!

gemoksssss aka fattttttt

i sat down the other day thinking of how i used to look like last time. veri slim....imagine size 24 inch waist, 35 inch butt...cun kan badan i? macam manelah ismail tak terpikat....
skrg semua dah double....tapi taklah sampai 70inch butt....mcm dari dapur 3 bilik ke dapur 5 bilik. however nasib baik gue nya size baju masih jugak ada kedai yg jual. ..but sumtimes when i look at myself, i ask, how ever did i reach dis size? nak ckp makan, takdelah berpinggan2. only one mistake, i stopped exercising...dat is why im asking for dat UZAP from OSIM..manelah tau, lepas pakai bdn mcm fiona xue! want to ask my hby to buy dis for me and i will get a stationary bicycle...

however fat i maybe, i have to admit, i'm veri happy....thks to sum of my frens advice..I LOVE YOU ALL....macam "erlin montel" while eating the epok2 - "gemuk, gemuklah, aku cantik ape!" for me..."gemuk, gemuklah, aku hepi ape!"

its been so long!

eh dah lama betol kita tak update kitanya blog. i'm gonna summarise all the happenings for the past 2 months. Here it goes:

sumwhere in jan
i wanted to give back my new title after being promoted...i'm very stressed dat i don tink i can fulfill my responsibilities...i was told to outshine each other...tak bolelah mana ada energy. sumhow my request cant be accepted..my sup says she has confidence in me and i can cum bck for review for another 2mths or so,if i still feel the same...now i tink i've more confidence. sumwhere dis mth, i was oso feeling so down...again & agn my in laws asyik cakap gue gemuk aje..eh tak bole gemok ke! kita feel happy kan? abih asyik kena tanam baja aje...all their sindiran really offended me...sedih tau kita....nak ngadu dgn laki...dia pun nanti nasi tambah...

10 & 13 february
my darling husband bot me my b'day gift - my new birks ibiza in beige...lawar tau! tak sempat ambik gambar. i got my hsbnd ambercrombie polo t and a white l/s from Marks & Spencer and after 5 years of marriage we watched movie, just the 2 of us..he wanted to watch "Fearless" yg ada Jet Li tu, eeeee..i taknak, i said "Memoirs of a Geisha"...eeee laki ku pulak taknak...jadi kita tengok "Fun with Dick and Jane"....kelakarlah tapi....Jim Carey mcm dah mild sikit...

20 february
my good fren came...eh! frustrated betol!....macam main "scratch and win" - once tak sangkut - "Sorry, try again!"

today
i did my calculations again if i want to resign - whether enuf or not, seems dat i hv to cancel my cable subscription, internet, danish send to the PCF near our hse(so can save tpt costs) only have 200 to spend on groceries, toiletries, tpt and nonsense...hmmmm bole ke?
nari kat keja kita nangis...entahlah kenapa...so emotional...i feel so fustrated, i do so much but blah, blah, blah...malaslah nak cakap lagi...nasib baik ada bantal busuk cute i...ada tempat nak mengadu...

wedding of nurasikin wit mohd fairus n d wedding was held at tepak sirih on 1st jan 06
nura was my old neybor at holland close at blk 1. her mum looked after me since i was a baby..so her family has been like a family to me.

however i was veri sad after attending weddin..i tersinggung pun ade! yelah dah mcm fmly, tapi bila kita dok salah tempat, d bride was upset..in fact bukan kita yang pandai2, d brader yg sent us to dat table...yelah dat table yg kita duduk 2, ada kawan2 dia..agaknya tak sepadan..and it was a veri front table...maybe we are not dat close enuf...to have such special seating....

in fact kan, dis majlis was so formal..dahlah MC berbual pelat,dia ckp "thlamat pengantin baru" lagu sekuat2 tidak...kita dok dgn mak buyong yg pakai baju ketat, tunjok longkang pulak tu, d whole table d bride's kwn2 senyum pun tidak, lagi kan nak sapa....hai kata majlis pengantin melayu dekat taman warisan pulak tu!...entahlah...melayu, melayu...

i dunno lah maybe dis family has changed over the years, before kita sama2 susah..but after they moved...they became veri "high-class" gitu...buat majlis tunang sampai kat bawah blok..lepas 2 putus...takde jodoh...now d youngest buat wedding so class gitu..tapi takde semangat mcm sedara gotong royong...mcm org putehnya wedin gitu...little did they know i hv deep dark secrets whn i grew wit thm b4, which whn i was a chd, i didnt know it was wrong...

i balik rumah i nangis tau, i remember how close we were...i helped her out when she asked, her mum stayed my place during my wedding, sent my hsbnd bridal suit...i loved my mak eton so much...n only now i've realised they've changed! n den kita asyik kena tegur..."eh tini...sihatnya anak emak! dietlah, jadi cepat2 dpt lagi satu"...hai dahlah sedih kena kutuk lagi.

dahlah cukuplah kita mengutuk orang..hai banyak betol dosa kita! tini....tini...tini